Murmurs teenage angst. heartbreak. self-harm. The little murmur, the one I can hear it in the loudest of the day,… Read more story teller: murmurs
Author: jacob.greb
story teller: living terrors
Living Terrors flashbacks. terrors. ptsd. living. I can’t feel a thing but I can hear the black-winged beetles strum and… Read more story teller: living terrors
story teller: innocent content
Innocent Content adolescence. mental health treatment centre. awkwardness. loner. My muse dances in front of the windows at exactly four… Read more story teller: innocent content
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Last Entry Here it is, my last entry. These random notes have run longer than planned. The initial purpose of… Read more real time with jacob
story teller: isolation
Isolation feeling disconnected from others. isolated. depressed. feeling nothingness. ‘Save me, Cara. Save me.’ The isolation kind of sneaked up… Read more story teller: isolation
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My Apology Why do I apologize so much, especially for my behaviour, my thoughts? Guilt. Shame. Fear of rejection. I… Read more real time with jacob
story teller: avalanche of feelings
Avalanche of Feelings toxic friends. anger. feeling of confusion and loss. The spoon that bent my mind. I wish I… Read more story teller: avalanche of feelings
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After the Thoughts It’s been a week and my engagement with the thoughts of death has pretty much stayed the… Read more real time with jacob
story teller: bruises
Bruises fear. anxiety. thanatophobia. I’m struggling today. That much I know it’s true. The room is spinning. My heart has… Read more story teller: bruises
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In Need of a Reboot Feeling suicidal lately, which is never a good sign. I get these moments of simply… Read more real time with jacob
story teller: thoughts
Thoughts thoughts of suicide. thoughts of doubt. Journal Entry 1093 – 2012.02 My brain doesn’t click or crackle; it simply… Read more story teller: thoughts
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Rollercoaster After rereading some of my entries, I write myself as being on a rollercoaster. One moment, I’m stable, collected,… Read more real time with jacob
story teller: turn it off
Turn It Off feeling lost. missing a friend. MORNING “Screens off.” Karrie’s mother, Beatrice, or Bea as her father likes… Read more story teller: turn it off
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Hair Dilemma I started to hate my hair today. It got long over the few months and I simply started… Read more real time with jacob
story teller: time, the measure of fear
Time: The Measure of Fear fear. isolation. depression. The time elapsed and the yellow duvet never turned itself inside out.… Read more story teller: time, the measure of fear
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Stress in the Pit of my Stomach The physical symptoms of stress can cause havoc and it happens more often… Read more real time with jacob
story teller: the importance of lists
The Importance of Lists depression. making lists. chores. finding purpose. Always make a list. Don’t look at the time. Be… Read more story teller: the importance of lists
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Communication Part 2 or I Lost Count Telling your spouse that you want to hurt yourself or end your life… Read more real time with jacob
story teller: the pondering angel
The Pondering Angel drinking. alcoholism. guilt. childhood’s consequence. Touch the music and let it lift me to the air. The… Read more story teller: the pondering angel

mornings
new beginnings new mornings as i stumble out of the bed all drunk and drugged out the party has ended… Read more mornings

chapters
yet we still don’t know how the story ends the beginning comes with twists and turns the end is still… Read more chapters
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The Trouble With Language A lump, a blimp, a blip, all sound the same to me today. Not just sound,… Read more real time with jacob
story teller: a borrowed smile
A Borrowed Smile sadness. depression. anxiety. love. NIGHT Two thirty-four bickers its hour and I sit staring at a buzzing… Read more story teller: a borrowed smile
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Asking About a Trigger Can Be a Trigger Yes, it’s a thing. Asking someone about their trigger is like asking… Read more real time with jacob
story teller: avalanche
Avalanche finding oneself in others. a reflection. PART 1: AKIN REFLECTION “You feel like dying?” Sarah’s angelic voice makes me… Read more story teller: avalanche